Why are we so hesitant to try things that might expose our vulnerability? Would it be for fear of failure? Embaressment? Wasting time? Or is our comfort zone just too cosy no matter how dissatisfied we really are with our own unique situations?

Just a thought...

How do you say "no" and not offend someone?

'Cause let's face it: Most people are NOT that emotionally mature to be able to accept a negative answer where they initially expected a resounding "yes".

And how do you handle the uncomfortable feeling you have afterwards, even though you know there was no wrong doing on your part?

See I'm asking because I'm no more emotionally mature than the majority of people I would like to say no to  and at some occasions. I don't want to be one of those people in glass houses either...

Hmmmm, something to think about for the New Year.

To those who actually reads my ramblings: May you have a less confusing year than this one. May you find what we are all looking for : CONTENTMENT.....and this is not a cliche.

Think about it:

When you eventually find the path in life you've dreamt about, you're excited, 'cause you know where you're heading.
If you know where you heading and start working on getting there, the pretty little things that used to irritate you start to fall by the way side.
When all that pettiness is gone I can only assume that your focus is much better.
When you focus your goals align themselves almost on their own; and as you achieve them you're actually happy that you did that.

And then at last...you're content.

For me, being content means that you or not constantly chasing. You've actually stopped to appreciate that hard work actually leads to results that you actually want!

Anyway, that is my uninformed opinion.

Hope someone reads this and it helps them.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hi! (Sounds optimistic doesn't it???)

But alas, I have to disappoint you. I"m STILL searching....
I refuse to let that get me down. I WILL find my true calling , whatever that may be and however long it may take and whichever path I have to follow to get there.(I have mentioned I don't exactly know where "there" is yet, right??)

Until I share again: Ciao! 

Trying...again!

My first attempt at starting my own blog was nearly two months ago. I still have no idea what I'm doing.

The only thing I know for sure, is that my urgency to do what I love-and do it for a living-has grown stronger by the day.

This would then be an attempt to actually do things systematically and with a lot of patience, to finally get a proper end a search for fulfillment that started a long time ago. First only as a small nagging voice that has now become a desperate plea for emancipation.

I've now realised that you don't have to choose only one thing you're passionate about. If you're really lucky, you'll be able to combine you passions and actually make a living off it. How do you like them apples!

Here I go again! Talking about combining passions when I haven't even isolated one particular interest!(Do you see my problem with patience?)

I'm promising myself now:One step at a time.

Got a lot of reading to do.

Will keep you posted!

The beginning......

Today is the first day I take a step to the rest of the life I would like to live.

What is it that I exactly want to do?

I have no idea!

What I do know is that I can't work with a lot of people. I'm too much of a perfectionist (in my eyes at least) and therefore too critical on others.

So what to do?

Well, the best would be to go on a mission finding my passion.
As much as it might sound like a clichè, I'll never find what I love unless I go on a jouney of self-discovery in order to make a living off what I love.

What are the things that I like...or love for that matter?

Let me start on my journey so I can get back to you.....